[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]
'\x3cscript type=\x22text/javascript\x22 language=\x22javascript\x22 src=\x22http://assets.tumblr.com/javascript/tumblelog.js?934\x22\x3e\x3c/script\x3e\x3cspan id=\x22audio_player_21921991223\x22\x3e[\x3ca href=\x22http://www.adobe.com/shockwave/download/download.cgi?P1_Prod_Version=ShockwaveFlash\x22 target=\x22_blank\x22\x3eFlash 9\x3c/a\x3e is required to listen to audio.]\x3c/span\x3e\x3cscript type=\x22text/javascript\x22\x3ereplaceIfFlash(9,\x22audio_player_21921991223\x22,\'\\x3cdiv class=\\x22audio_player\\x22\\x3e\x3cembed type=\x22application/x-shockwave-flash\x22 src=\x22http://assets.tumblr.com/swf/audio_player.swf?audio_file=http://www.tumblr.com/audio_file/21921991223/tumblr_m35gtoDjlI1rn5sgh\x26color=FFFFFF\x22 height=\x2227\x22 width=\x22207\x22 quality=\x22best\x22 wmode=\x22opaque\x22\x3e\x3c/embed\x3e\\x3c/div\\x3e\')\x3c/script\x3e'
Track: A Kiss to Build a Dream On
Artist: Louis Armstrong
Album: 20th Century Masters - The Millennium Collection: The Best of Louis Armstrong
Plays: 21
A Kiss To Build A Dream On
Typically the defining characteristic of a hero is his ability to sacrifice his own desires for the greater good of humanity.
What must I sacrifice?
I know in order to be the man the world needs me to be, I must be able to give up things that I love. I gave up junk food for my body. I gave up my own privacy for this blog in the hopes of reaching someone whose struggling. I also gave up white chocolate… I really miss white chocolate.
The biggest sacrifice came today, or this week rather. I’ve gone on a few dates with a girl who has stolen my heart. Yet the reason we met was because of this blog. I inspired her. Well, my story inspired her. She saw a strength in me that she wanted for herself. She wanted courage and independence. I want that for her.
On her hunt for inner strength, she sought out my guidance. Before I knew what happened I was completely smitten.
Honestly, It sucks. I know that she needs to get to a place in her life where she is emotionally healthy and complete. It’s something she has to do alone… just like I did. The callus that grows from lonely nights is what makes you strong enough to walk alone. I can’t rob her of that. It’s selfish of me to ask her to stop her journey because of my infatuation.
This week has been lovely. I’ve been dancing for no reason. I’ve been singing Sinatra songs about grand romance in the shower and on the way to work. I’ve been captivated by late night phone calls, subtle hand holds and the most soul piercing eyes I have ever seen. Yet, it’s my duty, as a hero to let that go.
It breaks my heart, but I care enough about her to let her grow on her own. That’s what Heroes do, they sacrifice. Most of the time they sacrifice something a lot more noble than a girl, but this one meant an awful lot to me. She was different… special. I can only hope that my sacrifice will somehow lead to her success.
I will keep in touch, encourage her and most likely stay very good friends.
but alone, I will ache for her and for the kiss that I was never quite brave enough to steal… A kiss to build a dream on.
JUST BE BRAVE: The Mission Statement
This is by far the most soul baring thing I have ever put on the internet… but I thought someone might need to hear it.
If you have a dream, go after it.
If you have a story, tell it.
It might be uncomfortable and scary, but you were put on this earth to accomplish something great. Don’t you dare shy away from that.
#bebrave
I had two of those tuna wraps and it still wasn’t enough to break 450 calories. Gotta cut out that Mayo yo! (Taken with instagram)
STRETCH MARK BLUES
So i’ve been using this cocoa butter stretch mark cream I found at WalMart, but I need to stop because it doesn’t seem to be working and it makes my skin smell like M&M’s.
Does anyone have any practical suggestions that don’t involve me buying more lotions with pregnant women on the cover?
POST WORKOUT LUNCH
Spinach, cucumbers, tomatoes, peppers, mushrooms, and spicy guac on a spinach wrap with pita chips and hummus.
Seriously, this entire meal is barely 400 calories
I am so done with with feeling sorry for myself.
Feeling as though the pressure to be strong is more than I can take.
I’m so over this wave of self doubt and the voice in my head that tells me I am worthless.
SO TODAY I WILL SHUT UP, GET OFF MY ASS, PUT ON MY CAPE AND DO WHAT GOD PUT ME ON THIS EARTH TO DO. PERIOD.
For my purpose is bigger than myself and I refuse to let fear get the best of me.
No reserves. No Retreats. No Regrets.
#bebrave
Demi Lovato Discuses Eating Disorder
This girl is just so.. ugh, I can’t even #love
.
I love this book. It’s always been one of my favorites #thegiver
I got in a weird funk tonight. I didn’t understand why until a friend asked me and I was forced to search my brain for a reason. Maybe someone can relate to this.
I simply, DON’T FEEL WORTHY.
People continue to call me a great inspiration and I appreciate that. But in my head, I don’t feel very inspirational. I feel like I am barely scraping by.
I’m not a hero. I’m just a fat kid whose trying to prove the world wrong.
I don’t feel worthy of admiration. Even when I accomplish something great, I have trouble responding to accolades.
How? How could anyone find me special or interesting or attractive? I’ve spent my entire life being conditioned to play the sidekick, the sad clown, the boy who doesn’t get the girl.
I’m getting more positive attention due to my weight loss, but in a strange turn of events, I feel more lonely than I did before. Is it possible that people are beginning to see the kid beneath the fat? Or is the world just setting me up for another one those grand disappointments that i’ve become so a costumed to. I have trouble trusting anyone.
I know, this blog is kind of a bummer. But I’m struggling with this big time.
My entire life, i’ve wanted to be treated normal. It’s beginning to happen, and I don’t feel ready for it. I don’t really feel like I deserve recognition. Actually, there’s a lot that I don’t feel like I deserve. It’s hard for me to even type that without my eyes watering.
I know i’m just in a weird funk and hopefully it’ll pass soon. Just pray for me guys because I need help fighting off this feeling.
Self doubt is my greatest antagonist.
I think it won this round.
