This was the very first song i listened to after The Biggest Loser told me I didn’t make the show. 

Of course the rejection made me upset, but I think I knew somewhere deep down that this wasn’t the end for me. 

So many times it felt like life wasn’t going according to plan, but actually it just wasn’t going according to my plan! Gods plan is bigger and better than mine ever could be. & I may not always understand it, but I faith the future will be better.

Typically, disappointment is a result of guessing the ending wrong. I thought “wow, this is my chance. This is my moment. My entire life was been building up to this. I was destined for this.” and I wasn’t. Biggest loser, like most of life’s disappointments, was just a learning experience to get me ready for something else. 

My imagination was limited. All of the hopes I had in biggest loser involved me mimicking someone else’s happy ending because i could not fathom my own original resolution. 

God is better than that. 

& while there are times that he’ll introduce new characters or story arcs that leave me feeling heartbroken, i have to understand that he has the foresight to understand the significance of every scene. That while I might rack my brain trying, I’ll never quite understand his intentions behind certain preconceved plot points.

AND THAT’S OK. 

I’ve accepted this.

I can either waste my time trying to figure out why God wrote a scene that left me distraught - OR I could hurry to the next act where things are sure to get better!

Call me delusional or naive, but in my heart I have to believe that there’s a reason for everything and that every scene of our story is intended to lead us towards a happily ever after. 

Things will go wrong but the show goes on. Don’t let the struggles of the past keep you from embracing the future, because it was designed specifically for you and it will be wonderful beyond description. 

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“So no matter what you been through, no matter what you into

No matter what you see when you look outside your window

Brown grass or green grass, picket fence or barbed wire

Never ever put them down, you just lift your arms higher

Raise ‘em ‘til your arms tired let ‘em know you here

That you struggling, surviving, that you gonna persevere

Yeah, ain’t nobody leaving, nobody going home

Even if they turn the lights out, the show is going on”

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